GaryHart_…. Who is this boy??_

It’s now 2007… Since 18 years ago until now, time is still being a terrifying thing for me. So terrifying that every single moments: happiness, sadness, anger, even regrets would be forgotten as the time goes by. Like 911 said, "time waits for no one sure as the path that has been chosen, cannot be changed". When i was reviewing my life throughout 2006, i realize that many happiness happened that year, much more sadness i got to face, a bit anger still don’t wanna leave my life, and too many regrets accross my journey in 2006. One of my biggest regrets was about my study the previous term, which was so far away from what i wished and i thought would be. I am a person who used to be able to easily accept everything i had. By the time i received my study report, i learnt to barely feel the disappointment, but i didn’t know why i couldn’t easily tolereate this failure. Then i started to blame everyone i could assign the blame on until this 2007 came. I faced this new year differently in comparisson with the years before. I started 2007 with no commitments and no passion at all. But thank God, things that happened to me in early 2007 let me had another view points in seeing my own life. One conclusion i had: "I am not what happened to me, I am what i choose to become". Life is full of choices, even life itself is an option for everyone. How can you be happy if you don’t set yourself to be happy whatever the environments are?! Another important thing is realizing that our lives don’t belong to us 100-percent-ly, we are just being trusted to live the life we posses right now by God. I was very blessed with someone… he told me not to build my own life without consulting to the creator of the life itself. Remember that our God is the best consultant we could expect. I know that no one could change even a single part in his life which had been happened, neither do I. No one could stop the time and no one could reach the forgotten moments back as well. But one thing i keep in mind, "I won’t be afraid of time anymore. I’ll let time brings all my sadness, regrets, even my happiness because in the end of my life, i would see how good i am because God let all the happiness, all the sadness, all the anger, and all the regrets happened which have made me to be the best Gary i could be ". Let us work our life!!!_

Here was an article published by Chichago Tribune’s in 1997. I don’t know why i post this article, but i just wanna share an article which had been inspiring so many people round the world. Thanks to someone who made me realize about this article and special thanks to those who don’t only read the title but the whole passage. By the time you finish, let me know what do you think about this writing. Thus, sit back and take your time…..

Everybody’s Free to Wear Sunscreen

If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it .

The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience.

I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth.

Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they’ve faded.

But trust me, in 20 years, you’ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked.

You are not as fat as you imagine.

Don’t worry about the future.

Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum.

The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 pm on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing every day that scares you.

Sing.

Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts.

Don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss.

Don’t waste your time on jealousy.

Sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes you’re behind.

The race is long and, in the end, it’s only with yourself.

Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults.

If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch.

Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your life .

The most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives.

Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don’t.

Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees. You’ll miss them when they’re gone.

Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t.

Maybe you’ll have children, maybe you won’t.

Maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary.

Whatever you do, don’t congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either.

Your choices are half chance. So are everybody else’s.

Enjoy your body.

Use it every way you can. Don’t be afraid of it or of what other people think of it.

It’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own.

Dance , even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.

Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them.

Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.

"brother and sister together we’ll make it through,

someday a spirit will take you and guide you there

I know that you’re hurting but i’ve been waiting there for you

and I’ll be there just helping you out

whenever I can"

Get to know your parents. You never know when they’ll be gone for good.

Be nice to your siblings. They’re your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on .

Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.

Live in

New York City

once, but leave before it makes you hard.

Live in

Northern California

once, but leave before it makes you soft. Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths:

Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too, will get old.

And when you do, you’ll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble, and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don’t expect anyone else to support you.

Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you’ll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out.

Don’t mess too much with your hair or by the time you’re 40 it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it.

Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it’s worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen.

"brother and sister together we’ll make it through,

someday a spirit will take you and guide you there

I know that you’re hurting but I’ve been waiting there for you

and I’ll be there just helping you out

whenever I can

everybody’s free

everybody’s free

to feel good"

Yesterday, for the last three-week-period i have done my fast. Actually this wasn’t my first fast, but in my opinion this fast was very unique and challenging. Some people called it as Daniel Fasting, and as its name, i fasted like Daniel did. At that time, Daniel didn’t eat all the king’s meals and in today’s age those meals were represented by all the products connected to animals, such as meat, milk, egg, and all the food products containing those things. Honestly, at he beginning i was so reluctant to do this that i missed the first-two-day. I thought that this fast would be useless and good-for-nothing activity. Strangely, God put me on the condition that forced me to do this fast and at last i started fasting on Monday. I did that because the aim that God told me. My aim at that time was to prove that there was no works of flesh [symbolized by animal products] took part of my life and nothing but Jesus could chain me. I just wished that God would do His job and made me strong thus i can pass this through because i knew that this wouldn’t be that easy.

After 17 days of fasting, i realize that i seemed forgot the main purpose of this fast, related to Indonesia. So i ask Him what He wanted to say to me about this nation. I said that i didn’t want to end up this fast without revelation from God. And God simply said this to me: "There are so many righteous people in this nation, but there are only a bit commited people that wanna stand for this nation. In which group are you belong to??". Hearing that, i simply checked my self and found that i had no pride of Indonesia. God reminded me to Sodom and Gomorrah’s story. What had happened in Sodom and Gomorrah at that time, had been happening in Indonesia, didn’t you realize that?! And God is looking for those people who have His heart for Indonesia. This revelation is incredible for me because it makes me keep asking God to reborn Indonesia inside my heart. Finally, i dare to say that i have no regret doing this fast, though sometimes i still sin but God strenghten me day by day. I wish this revelation also make you who read this passage realize that we can choose whether we’ll stand for this nation or not and then God’ll make His decision whether He’ll destroy or keep this nation. That’s what we have to keep in mind. Hope that you don’t make wrong decision. God speed_                           

[Sunday, 10th September 2006 ; 2.22 AM]

Hhhh…. akhirnya g nyampe jg d semester 3 food tech uph…. kt org seh ni semester termasuk salah satu semester yg paling berat d pangan…. sebenernya pas awal msk pangan g berharap cpt2 smstr 3 soalnya mata kul smster 3 tuh kynya seru, pangan bgt… sementara smster 1 n 2 tuh masi ky sma gt…..

nah, pas ud d smster 3 awalnya g excited, g pikir seberat2nya mentok2 mirip ma smter 2…. pas ud ampir dua bln, g br berasa tuh yg namanya cape bgt, jauh lebi cape dibanding smster 1, 2… tiap minggu 3 praktikum [mikropang, kitik, n biokimpang], dg kt laen 3 laporan tiap minggu dg pembhsan yg masya allah +_+ blom lg pretest n quiz2 yg dashyat luar biasa yes yes yes (esc bgt, tp g kaga bs ikud)….. smster ini tuh g cm ambil 19 sks soalnya sebagian ud g ambil d SP, jd g pikir g punya bnyk wkt kosong bwt ng-aslab anak 06, jd g daftar d n diterima…. alhasil, skrg tiap hr g msk jem 7.30 n plg jem 4 sore mpe mabok….. sbnrnya ga gt nyesel seh jd aslab, soalnya nambah pengalaman jg trus jd bs lebi kenal anak2 06 abis uph festival….

Gara2 tiap hr g cm tdr paling lama 5 jem, jd g sering tdr d kls : kls kimpang, kitik, pen komp, ptp, biokim (pharah bgt_) blm lg tiap minggu pasti ada wkt mkn siang yg kepotong gara2 pengamatan mikpang…. trus tiap hr minggu g jg ada pelayanan d grj jd nyampe kost paling cpt jem 5 n ud tepar bgt, ga napsu bikin laporan…. ditambah lagi g ikud puasa daniel alias puasa daging n smua derivatnya, jd makin susah makannya….. satu lagi, komsel tiap minggu 2 kali, trus mesti follow up bbrp anak n sob tiap hr jumat sore mpe malem, nyampe kost ud hmpr tengah mlm……

Hasilnya, SaTe g berantakan, bener2 blom bs ngatur waktu neh…. trus nilai2 g jg ga tau gmn nasibnya (sejauh ini quiz n pretest g lumayan parah…) pdhal g pengen bgt dpt beasiswa bwt smster dpn, jd makin beban gt rasanya….. g ud korbanin bbrp hal seh ky ga ikud sob minggu terakhir, ga ikud food gathering, ga ikud lit, ga ikud esc (ada hikmahnya jg ternyata…) tp tetep aj masi kacau, mpe g brasa muak ma aktivitas g….. Trus bagi yg blom tau, Alkitab g ilang d angkot, pdhal tuh Alkitab very2 priceless bwt g….. (untung tere mw pinjemin Alkitabnya bwt sementara….heheheh thx y_)…

Untungnya g ga sendiri, ad tmn2 g yg punya aktivitas yg sama parahnya ma g n akhirnya qt malah saling nguatin….. sebenernya g ud tau apa yg salah, yaitu g sering ngorbanin waktu g ma Tuhan…. makanya skrg g lg dlm tahap2 bwt balik lg ma yg namanya kasih karunia Bapa, g percaya lah apa yg dianggap bodoh bagi dunia akan dipakai luar biasa oleh Bapa bwt mempermalukan dunia…. skrg mungkin bnyk org yg blg bhw g ckp bodoh bwt ngorbanin waktu g untuk hal2 yg mungkin sifatnya secondary need, tp g percaya klo aktivitas g boleh ada spt skrg tuh emg Tuhan yg ijinin n g yakin kasih karunia Bapa cukup bwt g….. Bagi mereka2 yg jg ngalamin hal yg mirip ma g, dimana kdg qt blg "i’m fed up with this chaotic" ayo qt sama2 lah inget ma Bapa qt yg luar biasa. Klo Dia bs kasi g semangat lg, pst lo org bakal dikasi semangat yg sama!! God speed_